Flat tires become divine gifts

           It is a mixed message that I am having to deal with right at the moment having gone to Los Angeles to get some clarification about the situation I came back with a prescription for a new set of pills that have a better than even chance of working for awhile , an opportunity to get a process done that will take the white cells out of the blood have them treated with a prostate cancer antigen(?) that will help the cells become more cognizant of the cancer cells and strengthen the immune system. The ever present desire on the part of some practitioners to introduce chemotherapy and a naturopath that when presented with a possibility of using a natural remedy dismissed it out of hand.
           Add to this witches brew was a late Friday afternoon phone call asking that I schedule a visit with the oncologist who originally  said chemotherapy ,thoughts to entertain myself with during the weekend.
            The result is I feel great. Sleeping well and excited about being alive. I do not have answers to any of this so I have devised a system of reaching out to friends by Skype to have a conference about what is available and hoe I should proceed. I will learn what I need to know at these conferences and make the decision then.
           On thanksgiving on served food at the Salvation Army always an uplifting experience for me. There I meet a man who had no arms below his elbows , he lived on the street and survived. He feed himself without help and was dignified and polite. So when I see the numbers and problems that I deal with It gets to put a little perspective on the situation.
          What I have is a growing trust in the friendliness of the universe and love of guru, friends , and family. Like many successful people I have tended to believe that much of it was due to my abilities and work and while that is true what is sustaining me now is not the money ,although that helps, but the centeredness's of being that comes from a growing understanding my life.
           I spoke to my nephew B today finally catching up with him after many weeks. He is beset by problems but we put those into perspective and with an opportunity to talk about dharma I felt the same love and exhilaration that we always have in our conversations. . It was a  lengthy discussion of the need to use compassion and equanimity in dealing with self and others. He is quite brilliant and I really love him.
         I seem to be loving more people these days. I went for a bike ride around Squaw Peak and three quarters of the way through got a flat tire. I first thought  I would walk home but realized that it was an opportunity to connect with another person I love and have him to give me a lift back to the house. It was a godsend not only did I get a ride back but he gave me a pep talk about health . His faith my eventual recovery and continued good health was more inspiration . Flat tires become divine gifts.
         Prima Amiga arrives Tuesday and I am excited about that. Talk about another blessing. We will be spending more time together than we ever have before. This will be fun. She is up for doctors visits and all the stuff that I have to endure in maintaining health  plus I told her I would take her to the Salvation Army Christmas event. She has never been . It will be fun.
        Meditations are less frequent but very high quality I use them in adverse circumstance to dissect and learn about suffering so that I can mindfully address what is being thrown at me. Many more to come and I am ready , they strengthen my abilities.