Just got the word from my doctor about the effects of the Chemo on PSA. Mine was 1035 before the chemo and today the test came in at 106 an almost 90% reduction.
My immediate reaction was being stunned.
Last night I thought that I would be grateful and happy because of the news but found myself meditating on the anger and dismay of all that I had sacrificed to get to this point. The meditation was intense , long , and unpleasant but after two hours it was as all things are ,impermanent.
I am now just tired , 4 hours sleep.
I am equanomous at the moment and have a lighter heart than last night. Prima Amiga comes tomorrow and Tuesday I have an appointment to discuss my options from here.
This is an intense trip and my meditations are up to it.
