Return of hope

        I had a phone appointment with Dr Lam today. Much more optimistic than Gorsch he suggested several different options to pursue. SOme using combinations of old and new drugs, some different combos with chemo , some using old drugs that may still have an effect and the final being some new drugs.
It gives me hope for some life extensions, cure is in no ones lexicon but I have  a couple projects I would like to see brought to fruitions and  this gives me hope that I can live to see  at least some of them established and underway.
Allie's is back from Spain and my cousin/sister  just returned to the frozen wasteland of the mid-west after the phone conference with Dr Lam.
         On Sunday I attended a retreat with my KM group and as is my good fortune was once again rewarded with the spiritual uplifting  and healing that being with  them  has always brought me.
          Another amazing blessing for me is to understand how much care and loving kindness I am being given in the prayers and meditations of so many people whom I have known and loved in my life. It is both a great honor and very humbling.
          I hope everyone realizes how much I revere the love  being directed my way.



           
        

The news and the reactions

Here is a copy of the enail that I sent to everyone to give perspective about the situation that I face.

This morning in my prayer I asked Maharaji to be with me today . He said he was busy but would send Poppy and Mary as proxies. He did!

The construction guys were here and I had to back around them, Stella my car, now has  her first official banged up fender. I hit the water spigot. It does not looked damaged.

Mary, my cousin and Poppy , my neighbor and I went to  see Dr. Gorstch this afternoon and the news is that I have several options in front of me .

 Extreme chemo- good chance of working  on younger people but not for someone in my condition and age.

Milder but semi toxic chemo on  a weekly basis .---- It will maintain the cancer maybe but not improve my condition.

Quit chemo- more sleep , more painful and leave the body in 4  or 6 perhaps months more.Pain management the only therapy.

Call Dr Lam in LA when Allie returns . Get his opinion and thank him for all his good work.

Came home and Mary , Poopy, and I   vaporized . Spent much of  the afternoon laughing , talking about Rebecca, the spirits Poppy and I commune with and having a grand time.

The shock has not hit completely yet and the only decisions that I have made is to await Allie's return to talk this out, schedule a talk with Dr Lam , and involve my spiritual friends   more in the process

Enjoy the beauty of being here now ,it is achingly awesome.

The results are many heart warming responses, for which I am most grateful. But to keep  my life in perspective I received one email that offered me congratulations . The universe does have sense of humor