The ex and went to a experimental oncologists office to discuss the drug trials being offered by him in relating to the cancer. THe drug is called Ipilimumab and you can read of it from wikipedia http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ipilimumab.
From the best I can tell there is no rational way to decide if the drug is going to work or even if it dies wether I will get into the group that gets the drug. Since there is no rational way to decide then the best thing to do is use a medical intuitive. Some who visualizes the body of the patient who is being treated and when asked if a process or drug will work sees that paart of the body light up. I have such a person available and intend use his services to decided on the course of treatment.
Using intuition feels correct to me . I have depended on it so far and I feel excellent.
I have a shaman on tap that will guide me in to healing the body i can go into a deep meditation on healing at the drop of a hat and that feels excellent also. These choices are difficult and emotionally wrenching but my meditation practice supports me moment by moment so I am not depressed but rather spend a great deal of time in gratitude for the gifts of life that I am enjoying moment to moment. THe love of Prima Amiga who now told me to refer to her as the significant other when filling out forms in which I use her name .
That love is amazing ,uplifting , fulfilling, life enhancing , and something which enriches me every moment .
THe divine love an guidance of my guru who gives me the deep spiritual gifts that I need to continue to open to the pain, uncertainty, and suffering that is either experienced once consciously or many times unconsciously.
My blessings are so numerous and I am grateful for them all.
Friday, March 4, 2011
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
In the flow
Time to write again. It is quite amazing to me that I can function be happy and be at peace. Today I went to see the naturopath and he had the latest and best thing that would help. Well I looked at it and can't say I was too impressed about some of the stuff and when I did some research I found it not to be a cure but ancillary. I will talk to the person that he recommended and see. Thursday will see the primary physician and run this stuff through him.
I rode my bike over there and back over twenty miles round trip. Did not break a sweat but the high temperature is 74.
Yesterday went skiing in Flagstaff. Enjoyed several good runs then fell and decided that I needed to be in better shape for this. It was fun and on the slopes I got to talk to an enthusiastic skier about Shinzen Young's teachings he thought them profound I do to.
Thursday is the big day three doctors appointments.
Prima AMiga gave her talk to the Vipassana group tonight sounds like it was a success , we talked about the subject ,"what's love got to do with it."
One of the tibetan pills gives me the feeling of acid I am going to call about that tomorrow.
These missives seem to not have the depth of longing that I used to have to contend with. I am grateful that what has replaced that is calmness and happiness..
I rode my bike over there and back over twenty miles round trip. Did not break a sweat but the high temperature is 74.
Yesterday went skiing in Flagstaff. Enjoyed several good runs then fell and decided that I needed to be in better shape for this. It was fun and on the slopes I got to talk to an enthusiastic skier about Shinzen Young's teachings he thought them profound I do to.
Thursday is the big day three doctors appointments.
Prima AMiga gave her talk to the Vipassana group tonight sounds like it was a success , we talked about the subject ,"what's love got to do with it."
One of the tibetan pills gives me the feeling of acid I am going to call about that tomorrow.
These missives seem to not have the depth of longing that I used to have to contend with. I am grateful that what has replaced that is calmness and happiness..
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