Trial drugs

              The ex and  went to  a experimental oncologists office to discuss the drug trials being offered by him in relating to the cancer.  THe drug is called Ipilimumab and you can read of it from wikipedia  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ipilimumab.
          From the best I can tell there is no rational way to decide if the drug is going to work or even if it dies wether I will get into the group that gets the drug. Since there is no rational way to decide then the best thing to do is use a medical intuitive. Some who visualizes the body of the patient who is being treated  and when asked if a process or drug will work sees that paart of the body light up. I have such a person available and intend use his services to decided on the course of treatment.
          Using intuition feels correct to me . I have depended on it so far and I feel excellent.
         I have a shaman on tap that will guide me in to healing the body i can go into a deep meditation on healing at the drop of a hat and that feels excellent also. These choices are difficult and emotionally wrenching but my meditation practice supports me moment by moment so I am not depressed but rather spend a great deal of time in gratitude for the gifts of life that I am enjoying moment to moment. THe love of Prima Amiga who now told me to refer to her as the significant other when filling out forms in which I use her name .
           That love is amazing ,uplifting , fulfilling, life enhancing , and something which enriches me every moment .
          THe divine love an guidance of my guru  who gives me the deep spiritual gifts that I need to continue to open to the pain, uncertainty, and suffering that is either experienced once consciously or many times unconsciously.
          My blessings are so numerous and I am grateful for them all.