Friday, January 7, 2011
SHinzen live in a fascinating world and spending time with him is transformative in so many ways After the morning meditations in which I did a body awareness scan and got to the place where I was scanning and perhaps sleeping but I wonder if that is entirely true since I never felt that I lost my consciousness I was watching the mind explore the body albeit in a very dreamy way. I would call it hypnogogic awareness if anything. Anyway after an hour and a half of that I went to the lecture in which SHinzen talked of the aesthetic aspects of numbers and how the use of imaginary numbers, for instance the square root of a negative number, gave depth breadth and length in a dance like way to the limited feel of the number line.
Then we went into the meditation on flow. Well in hypnogogic sleep, the time that is before deep sleep and is not awakened consciousness thoughts flow in very fluid manner, nothing has any holding spot and the mind makes free associations without hindrances of formal inductive or deductive reasoning.
The whole experience was dance reminding me of the meditations that I used to do with Swami Muktananda in the 70’s. After an hour of this type of meditation we had a break and I wandered over to my room and decided to experiment with the old siddhi of vanishing, looked into the bathroom mirror concentrated in the relaxed flowing way that I had been doing all morning and my image disappeared in the mirror.
Went back for more after the break but Shinzen introduced another concept he wanted to have in our meditations and it was possible but way to difficult for me to incorporate everything else at the same time.
Lunch did some computer work and then had some of the last of the food that I had brought. Planned pretty well should run out of food at the same time that the retreat ends I will be eating a lot of rice though.
Friday, January 14, 2011
shinzen Young retreat in LA 4
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Though we are on a silent retreat there are times when there is interaction with SHinzen or teachings that are given. I continually remain impressed with the kindness, courage and determination of the people that I meet. It puts what I am going through into perspective, not better not worse just different outwardly.
The beauty of the way that each person deals with the challenges is breathtaking. Compassion, clarity and wisdom I have observed in abundance. Listening to the erudition of some of the people is amazing. One of the participants gave an impromptu description of an ancient Israeli harp; TS Eliot’s The Four Quartets was the for me for last night unexpected. Using various methods meditation to go into nothingness and the forms of nothingness that rend different effects.
Some of these methods open the heart that all things are an expression of love that flows like a great river carrying everything with it, other methods open the senses and take them beyond themselves. Leaving the mind clear and the conclusions obvious.
I am filled with hope and love and can feel the expansiveness that goes with it and then I see something that reminds me of my own mortality, in this case some lab reports from October. Immediately I notice and contraction in the level of joy and happiness and well being. What makes being here so important is that the observation of those phenomena is exactly what we are talking about in the lectures. Nothing is inherently unstable and falls into opposites expansion wishes to continue into infinity and contractions wishes to continue into oblivion. To notice the change in direction of these is like watching the breath. If one could inhale forever it would not work likewise if one could exhale it would not work there must be both and so must it be in all things of duality. It is the point of being here to note the changes and live mindfully aware of the contraction and expansions of existence and with practice tune into the finer and finer changes that taking place.
What a gift to be here.
They are going to do an all night meditation if I get up later I will go
Though we are on a silent retreat there are times when there is interaction with SHinzen or teachings that are given. I continually remain impressed with the kindness, courage and determination of the people that I meet. It puts what I am going through into perspective, not better not worse just different outwardly.
The beauty of the way that each person deals with the challenges is breathtaking. Compassion, clarity and wisdom I have observed in abundance. Listening to the erudition of some of the people is amazing. One of the participants gave an impromptu description of an ancient Israeli harp; TS Eliot’s The Four Quartets was the for me for last night unexpected. Using various methods meditation to go into nothingness and the forms of nothingness that rend different effects.
Some of these methods open the heart that all things are an expression of love that flows like a great river carrying everything with it, other methods open the senses and take them beyond themselves. Leaving the mind clear and the conclusions obvious.
I am filled with hope and love and can feel the expansiveness that goes with it and then I see something that reminds me of my own mortality, in this case some lab reports from October. Immediately I notice and contraction in the level of joy and happiness and well being. What makes being here so important is that the observation of those phenomena is exactly what we are talking about in the lectures. Nothing is inherently unstable and falls into opposites expansion wishes to continue into infinity and contractions wishes to continue into oblivion. To notice the change in direction of these is like watching the breath. If one could inhale forever it would not work likewise if one could exhale it would not work there must be both and so must it be in all things of duality. It is the point of being here to note the changes and live mindfully aware of the contraction and expansions of existence and with practice tune into the finer and finer changes that taking place.
What a gift to be here.
They are going to do an all night meditation if I get up later I will go
shinzen Young retreat in LA 1 and a half
/2/11
First entry for the new year. Most interesting insight that I have had at this retreat dealt concentration on outer phenomena. . Shinzen had us do a practice run of meditations on the sensations of the body, spatial hearing; back, front, side ,above, etc . And seeing.
The results are that I came to see that with deep concentration I can see things continually in motion , the leaves on the trees, the grass in the process of growing , a city transforming from cars moving to buildings rising and being taken down again. It is all a process that is continually changing.
This is not a new idea it is one I have had before and is very common as an insight.
The second part of the meditation was a deep concentration upon the moment by looking at finer and finer moments everything came to a halt. The plane in the air , the car on the freeway, the sound of fan motor with finer and finer one pointedness everything ceased to be in motion but is completely static. The only moment in which all of us live, “now,” when brought completely into awareness is fixed and static . Nothing has any prescribed future since the moment now is all that can exist.
This reminded me of a story of two monks arguing if the flag was moving or the wind. The master came along and said that it is your mind that moves. I\
I had heard that story but did not grok what it meant until that moment. Werner Heisenberg , the great quantum physicist , wrote that one can tell the position of a particle or one can determine the direction of a particle but one cannot tell both.
At the deep level of understanding that intense concentration of the moment brings that becomes self evident. The car going down the freeway is in the moment at a certain point the more certain that the observer is of its location the less certain the observer is of the direction. Is that the moment of ; an empty tank, tire failure , an accident, the great California earthquake, all of which have declining percentages of probability but that was what Heisenberg was postulating.
All that stuff I have heard about for years was demonstrated during that meditation.
My reaction has been ,”so what”, how can that help me with what I have to deal with . Last night I got the answer, there is a scientist in Chicago who demonstrated that by merely focusing intently and a relaxed and equanamous manner that the health of the focuser improves physical and emotional. We will see.
To catch up on what transpired while the blog was being written I am going to write a parallel entry.
First entry for the new year. Most interesting insight that I have had at this retreat dealt concentration on outer phenomena. . Shinzen had us do a practice run of meditations on the sensations of the body, spatial hearing; back, front, side ,above, etc . And seeing.
The results are that I came to see that with deep concentration I can see things continually in motion , the leaves on the trees, the grass in the process of growing , a city transforming from cars moving to buildings rising and being taken down again. It is all a process that is continually changing.
This is not a new idea it is one I have had before and is very common as an insight.
The second part of the meditation was a deep concentration upon the moment by looking at finer and finer moments everything came to a halt. The plane in the air , the car on the freeway, the sound of fan motor with finer and finer one pointedness everything ceased to be in motion but is completely static. The only moment in which all of us live, “now,” when brought completely into awareness is fixed and static . Nothing has any prescribed future since the moment now is all that can exist.
This reminded me of a story of two monks arguing if the flag was moving or the wind. The master came along and said that it is your mind that moves. I\
I had heard that story but did not grok what it meant until that moment. Werner Heisenberg , the great quantum physicist , wrote that one can tell the position of a particle or one can determine the direction of a particle but one cannot tell both.
At the deep level of understanding that intense concentration of the moment brings that becomes self evident. The car going down the freeway is in the moment at a certain point the more certain that the observer is of its location the less certain the observer is of the direction. Is that the moment of ; an empty tank, tire failure , an accident, the great California earthquake, all of which have declining percentages of probability but that was what Heisenberg was postulating.
All that stuff I have heard about for years was demonstrated during that meditation.
My reaction has been ,”so what”, how can that help me with what I have to deal with . Last night I got the answer, there is a scientist in Chicago who demonstrated that by merely focusing intently and a relaxed and equanamous manner that the health of the focuser improves physical and emotional. We will see.
To catch up on what transpired while the blog was being written I am going to write a parallel entry.
Shinzen Young retreat in LA 3
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
I am last so long and then things begin to change. Today I arose at 4 unable to sleep. There was a general sense of well-being but tiredness. The cold that I have been struggling with seem to coagulate in my sinuses and made sleep difficult. Did do the mantra Om Mane Padme Om with everyone but noticed that I was not able to get to the low notes that I love since they reverberate in the heart.
I am getting the hang of his talks and I take lots of notes in the pictorographic format. That seems to b his style and I love it that it makes me think in pictures.
He makes pennants for things like concentration clarity and equanimity and how the mind works to deal with each one of these states going shallow or deep if there is an equality of one with the other and how the mind tastes each in which he uses a symbol of a mouth from Hieroglyphics.
He quoted from a teacher of the 19th century named Mahasai Sayadal who formulated the idea of having the labeling of mental processes be part of the Buddhist practice.. He also discussed and showed in hieroglyphs of the breakdown of the system that he has been amalgamating, it divides any spiritual experience and by the process of breaking it into constituent elements allows for the whole the be reassembled so as to be repeatable and comprehensible for reintegration into the personality.
I speak of this very dryly but what is happening to me is anything but.
The elements consist of see, hear, and feel, and they are noted in the forms of in, out, rest, flow and gone. When I am looking at this screen I am seeing out. If I form a mental image in my mind of the screen that is see in, when the image does nothing or stops in my mind it is at rest, when the image transforms in the form of words appearing it is flow when I look away it is gone. The same is true of hearing and feeling.
In general the process that I have described happens all the time to each of us and we accept as totally natural, which it is. It works continually it is just that as one becomes better and better at observing it the results from the behaviors that emerge from personality begin to change.
So to give powerful example, which I am being hit with quite often, let me exam shame. The drugs that I am taking make my body, tired, among other things and sitting in meditation in a comfortable chair has the effect of putting me to sleep, much more than before. I snore so that I disturb my fellow meditators, most have been kind but it happens. This coupled with the fact that I am alone in that this is a silent retreat brings this type of activity and the resultant emotions to the fore. I am proud, and to have to be awakened in these circumstances feels shameful. If you agree or not is not the point. What I am feeling is the reality in that moment.
The technique is to note what is happening in the body. Tightness in the chest and throat wetness in the eyes by feel out and be aware in real time what I am describing to you in these pages. In a flat sonorous voice the mind recovers and regains its equanimity the experience is fully participated in and the power of that shame has been diminished to the degree that I have consciously experienced it.
Shame is in the human condition and it certainly is something that I have experienced in the past in situations that are embarrassing and hurtful there will be more to come I am training in letting go of the grasping of not wanting to experience what I am experiencing. I can either do it mindfully or not mindfully is the path of freedom or not is the path of suffering unconsciously.
I did go hiking in the local hills and they are quite beautiful, Catalina Island is near and the ships ply the channel between them and the mainland.
I am last so long and then things begin to change. Today I arose at 4 unable to sleep. There was a general sense of well-being but tiredness. The cold that I have been struggling with seem to coagulate in my sinuses and made sleep difficult. Did do the mantra Om Mane Padme Om with everyone but noticed that I was not able to get to the low notes that I love since they reverberate in the heart.
I am getting the hang of his talks and I take lots of notes in the pictorographic format. That seems to b his style and I love it that it makes me think in pictures.
He makes pennants for things like concentration clarity and equanimity and how the mind works to deal with each one of these states going shallow or deep if there is an equality of one with the other and how the mind tastes each in which he uses a symbol of a mouth from Hieroglyphics.
He quoted from a teacher of the 19th century named Mahasai Sayadal who formulated the idea of having the labeling of mental processes be part of the Buddhist practice.. He also discussed and showed in hieroglyphs of the breakdown of the system that he has been amalgamating, it divides any spiritual experience and by the process of breaking it into constituent elements allows for the whole the be reassembled so as to be repeatable and comprehensible for reintegration into the personality.
I speak of this very dryly but what is happening to me is anything but.
The elements consist of see, hear, and feel, and they are noted in the forms of in, out, rest, flow and gone. When I am looking at this screen I am seeing out. If I form a mental image in my mind of the screen that is see in, when the image does nothing or stops in my mind it is at rest, when the image transforms in the form of words appearing it is flow when I look away it is gone. The same is true of hearing and feeling.
In general the process that I have described happens all the time to each of us and we accept as totally natural, which it is. It works continually it is just that as one becomes better and better at observing it the results from the behaviors that emerge from personality begin to change.
So to give powerful example, which I am being hit with quite often, let me exam shame. The drugs that I am taking make my body, tired, among other things and sitting in meditation in a comfortable chair has the effect of putting me to sleep, much more than before. I snore so that I disturb my fellow meditators, most have been kind but it happens. This coupled with the fact that I am alone in that this is a silent retreat brings this type of activity and the resultant emotions to the fore. I am proud, and to have to be awakened in these circumstances feels shameful. If you agree or not is not the point. What I am feeling is the reality in that moment.
The technique is to note what is happening in the body. Tightness in the chest and throat wetness in the eyes by feel out and be aware in real time what I am describing to you in these pages. In a flat sonorous voice the mind recovers and regains its equanimity the experience is fully participated in and the power of that shame has been diminished to the degree that I have consciously experienced it.
Shame is in the human condition and it certainly is something that I have experienced in the past in situations that are embarrassing and hurtful there will be more to come I am training in letting go of the grasping of not wanting to experience what I am experiencing. I can either do it mindfully or not mindfully is the path of freedom or not is the path of suffering unconsciously.
I did go hiking in the local hills and they are quite beautiful, Catalina Island is near and the ships ply the channel between them and the mainland.
Shinzen Young retreat in LA 2
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
How do I make a decision? That seems to be the big question for the day. I was told of a way that SHinzen has organized and observed thinking so that one can observe the factors of ones own decision making process and learn how to accentuate the aspects that lead to worthwhile decisions and observe the things that lead to poor decisions.
How do I decide to do anything? When I first got the diagnosis I was possessed by fear but rather than succumb to its paralyzing effects I took action, some good, some bad, some indifferent. Among the good actions I list; seeing Ram Dass in Maui, going to see Alan at the 4 immeasurables weekend, setting up a food source through Devil Spice Food, getting W to instruct me in setting up bookkeeping with the insurance and tax people in mind, and getting the prima Amiga involved in some of the decision making.
The indifferent decisions were to follow the advise of the ex-wife in going to get reiki training and going to the naturopath. I have not followed up upon Reiki because while I have had some good experiences I have also not gotten the type of intellectual support that I find critical. The ex is very smart and follows the rules to the letter but does not have a creative bone in her body. So she just does what the protocol is and does it perfectly. This is great in the profession that she followed that of pathologist, because who wants a pathologist whose mind wanders creatively while looking at a sample of their anatomy to check for cancer or not. But Reiki requires a feel and for me naturopath requires a sense of interconnectedness with the patient. The ex would not be aware of either one of those qualities.
I do not wish to cast aspirations upon the ex ‘s character it is the highest, nor her judgment which in her field is outstanding but when it comes to humanity the lack of connectedness is palpable. It is a feeling that when things get tough, you’re on your own.
Perhaps I recognize this in her since it is a lacking that I of the feel in myself and perhaps it is why we were married for twenty-two years.
I digress, the poor decisions were signing up for something with the gym that I did not use did not fully understand and failed to follow up on. It was a financial decision that I did not get good use of.
I have undone the financially poor decisions, am contemplating how to deal with the indifferent ones.
Over the year I made many decisions as to how to proceed. The general criteria that I have used are that of following my heart. But the question remains how am I making decisions. Not what are the decisions good or bad but what is the process that I go through to reach them?
Well got an answer, found that the associate of SHinzen has already thought through and publish a decision tree using the mindfulness process now I will have to apply it.
How do I make a decision? That seems to be the big question for the day. I was told of a way that SHinzen has organized and observed thinking so that one can observe the factors of ones own decision making process and learn how to accentuate the aspects that lead to worthwhile decisions and observe the things that lead to poor decisions.
How do I decide to do anything? When I first got the diagnosis I was possessed by fear but rather than succumb to its paralyzing effects I took action, some good, some bad, some indifferent. Among the good actions I list; seeing Ram Dass in Maui, going to see Alan at the 4 immeasurables weekend, setting up a food source through Devil Spice Food, getting W to instruct me in setting up bookkeeping with the insurance and tax people in mind, and getting the prima Amiga involved in some of the decision making.
The indifferent decisions were to follow the advise of the ex-wife in going to get reiki training and going to the naturopath. I have not followed up upon Reiki because while I have had some good experiences I have also not gotten the type of intellectual support that I find critical. The ex is very smart and follows the rules to the letter but does not have a creative bone in her body. So she just does what the protocol is and does it perfectly. This is great in the profession that she followed that of pathologist, because who wants a pathologist whose mind wanders creatively while looking at a sample of their anatomy to check for cancer or not. But Reiki requires a feel and for me naturopath requires a sense of interconnectedness with the patient. The ex would not be aware of either one of those qualities.
I do not wish to cast aspirations upon the ex ‘s character it is the highest, nor her judgment which in her field is outstanding but when it comes to humanity the lack of connectedness is palpable. It is a feeling that when things get tough, you’re on your own.
Perhaps I recognize this in her since it is a lacking that I of the feel in myself and perhaps it is why we were married for twenty-two years.
I digress, the poor decisions were signing up for something with the gym that I did not use did not fully understand and failed to follow up on. It was a financial decision that I did not get good use of.
I have undone the financially poor decisions, am contemplating how to deal with the indifferent ones.
Over the year I made many decisions as to how to proceed. The general criteria that I have used are that of following my heart. But the question remains how am I making decisions. Not what are the decisions good or bad but what is the process that I go through to reach them?
Well got an answer, found that the associate of SHinzen has already thought through and publish a decision tree using the mindfulness process now I will have to apply it.
THe SHinzen Young retreat in LA
12/28/10
Arrived in Los Angeles today to see the Tibetan Doctor and to begin the SHinzen Young meditation retreat . It is a longer version of what I was doing in Oracle Arizona so I will chronicle what is going on here and try to catch up with the backlog of experiences that have transpired since my last posting.
Start with the arrival of prima amiga on Dec. 7 . Her arrival is a blessing for me and one that I devoutly look forward to. We have crossed the Rubicon in the aspect of deciding to have a loving relationship so there is no longer any doubt in my mind about having a spiritual partner for life or lives if you will. It has taken us three years of building this relationship with each other and the foundation is rock solid. Now we are looking to building a beautiful edifice based on awareness , honesty , and joy. It was something that I had wanted in the marriage that I was part of but that desire had to wait until the proper person came along. Our previous spouses came form our particular needs in the outer world whereas what we do together is work with manifestations of the outer that is the reflection of the inner.
My birthday was the 9th of December and to celebrate I invited all of the meditators that I knew for a sit t my house. Pot luck watch the sunset and the sit. About 15 people showed up on Thursday night and we had a chance to enjoy a beautiful sunset. A surprise person showed up in the form of a therapist that I have been seeing for several years , she never goes to any events and by happenstance she called me several days before the party and accepted my invitation.
The evening was magical a beautiful sunset which was watched in meditative quietness, excellent food, a gift from the prima Amiga of a meditation bowl which when struck resonates with the heart accompanying one into the meditation with the heart vibrating. After the meditation the prima amiga had everyone tell of something that they had been inspired about me. Something which I am not used to hearing and I thought it was the most marvelous of birthday presents. To hear how people love are inspired and respect me was a great honor and one that I will cherish the rest of my life. I see how adulation could be a major addiction.
More tomorrow.
Arrived in Los Angeles today to see the Tibetan Doctor and to begin the SHinzen Young meditation retreat . It is a longer version of what I was doing in Oracle Arizona so I will chronicle what is going on here and try to catch up with the backlog of experiences that have transpired since my last posting.
Start with the arrival of prima amiga on Dec. 7 . Her arrival is a blessing for me and one that I devoutly look forward to. We have crossed the Rubicon in the aspect of deciding to have a loving relationship so there is no longer any doubt in my mind about having a spiritual partner for life or lives if you will. It has taken us three years of building this relationship with each other and the foundation is rock solid. Now we are looking to building a beautiful edifice based on awareness , honesty , and joy. It was something that I had wanted in the marriage that I was part of but that desire had to wait until the proper person came along. Our previous spouses came form our particular needs in the outer world whereas what we do together is work with manifestations of the outer that is the reflection of the inner.
My birthday was the 9th of December and to celebrate I invited all of the meditators that I knew for a sit t my house. Pot luck watch the sunset and the sit. About 15 people showed up on Thursday night and we had a chance to enjoy a beautiful sunset. A surprise person showed up in the form of a therapist that I have been seeing for several years , she never goes to any events and by happenstance she called me several days before the party and accepted my invitation.
The evening was magical a beautiful sunset which was watched in meditative quietness, excellent food, a gift from the prima Amiga of a meditation bowl which when struck resonates with the heart accompanying one into the meditation with the heart vibrating. After the meditation the prima amiga had everyone tell of something that they had been inspired about me. Something which I am not used to hearing and I thought it was the most marvelous of birthday presents. To hear how people love are inspired and respect me was a great honor and one that I will cherish the rest of my life. I see how adulation could be a major addiction.
More tomorrow.
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Flat tires become divine gifts
It is a mixed message that I am having to deal with right at the moment having gone to Los Angeles to get some clarification about the situation I came back with a prescription for a new set of pills that have a better than even chance of working for awhile , an opportunity to get a process done that will take the white cells out of the blood have them treated with a prostate cancer antigen(?) that will help the cells become more cognizant of the cancer cells and strengthen the immune system. The ever present desire on the part of some practitioners to introduce chemotherapy and a naturopath that when presented with a possibility of using a natural remedy dismissed it out of hand.
Add to this witches brew was a late Friday afternoon phone call asking that I schedule a visit with the oncologist who originally said chemotherapy ,thoughts to entertain myself with during the weekend.
The result is I feel great. Sleeping well and excited about being alive. I do not have answers to any of this so I have devised a system of reaching out to friends by Skype to have a conference about what is available and hoe I should proceed. I will learn what I need to know at these conferences and make the decision then.
On thanksgiving on served food at the Salvation Army always an uplifting experience for me. There I meet a man who had no arms below his elbows , he lived on the street and survived. He feed himself without help and was dignified and polite. So when I see the numbers and problems that I deal with It gets to put a little perspective on the situation.
What I have is a growing trust in the friendliness of the universe and love of guru, friends , and family. Like many successful people I have tended to believe that much of it was due to my abilities and work and while that is true what is sustaining me now is not the money ,although that helps, but the centeredness's of being that comes from a growing understanding my life.
I spoke to my nephew B today finally catching up with him after many weeks. He is beset by problems but we put those into perspective and with an opportunity to talk about dharma I felt the same love and exhilaration that we always have in our conversations. . It was a lengthy discussion of the need to use compassion and equanimity in dealing with self and others. He is quite brilliant and I really love him.
I seem to be loving more people these days. I went for a bike ride around Squaw Peak and three quarters of the way through got a flat tire. I first thought I would walk home but realized that it was an opportunity to connect with another person I love and have him to give me a lift back to the house. It was a godsend not only did I get a ride back but he gave me a pep talk about health . His faith my eventual recovery and continued good health was more inspiration . Flat tires become divine gifts.
Prima Amiga arrives Tuesday and I am excited about that. Talk about another blessing. We will be spending more time together than we ever have before. This will be fun. She is up for doctors visits and all the stuff that I have to endure in maintaining health plus I told her I would take her to the Salvation Army Christmas event. She has never been . It will be fun.
Meditations are less frequent but very high quality I use them in adverse circumstance to dissect and learn about suffering so that I can mindfully address what is being thrown at me. Many more to come and I am ready , they strengthen my abilities.
Add to this witches brew was a late Friday afternoon phone call asking that I schedule a visit with the oncologist who originally said chemotherapy ,thoughts to entertain myself with during the weekend.
The result is I feel great. Sleeping well and excited about being alive. I do not have answers to any of this so I have devised a system of reaching out to friends by Skype to have a conference about what is available and hoe I should proceed. I will learn what I need to know at these conferences and make the decision then.
On thanksgiving on served food at the Salvation Army always an uplifting experience for me. There I meet a man who had no arms below his elbows , he lived on the street and survived. He feed himself without help and was dignified and polite. So when I see the numbers and problems that I deal with It gets to put a little perspective on the situation.
What I have is a growing trust in the friendliness of the universe and love of guru, friends , and family. Like many successful people I have tended to believe that much of it was due to my abilities and work and while that is true what is sustaining me now is not the money ,although that helps, but the centeredness's of being that comes from a growing understanding my life.
I spoke to my nephew B today finally catching up with him after many weeks. He is beset by problems but we put those into perspective and with an opportunity to talk about dharma I felt the same love and exhilaration that we always have in our conversations. . It was a lengthy discussion of the need to use compassion and equanimity in dealing with self and others. He is quite brilliant and I really love him.
I seem to be loving more people these days. I went for a bike ride around Squaw Peak and three quarters of the way through got a flat tire. I first thought I would walk home but realized that it was an opportunity to connect with another person I love and have him to give me a lift back to the house. It was a godsend not only did I get a ride back but he gave me a pep talk about health . His faith my eventual recovery and continued good health was more inspiration . Flat tires become divine gifts.
Prima Amiga arrives Tuesday and I am excited about that. Talk about another blessing. We will be spending more time together than we ever have before. This will be fun. She is up for doctors visits and all the stuff that I have to endure in maintaining health plus I told her I would take her to the Salvation Army Christmas event. She has never been . It will be fun.
Meditations are less frequent but very high quality I use them in adverse circumstance to dissect and learn about suffering so that I can mindfully address what is being thrown at me. Many more to come and I am ready , they strengthen my abilities.
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