WOW

So much so fast. I have a fellow shamateer with whom i am collaborating on the Bodichitta project. Our process of healing ourselves . K and I were in the the Shamatha project she in the first group and I in the second. We are two of seventy. We did not know each other from before but met at Alan Wallace's 7 point mind training last month. For us the meeting was magic. She spotted me first and I became aware of her soon after.
The meeting blossomed into an intense discussion of healing. She has a condition that she has absolute belief in being able to change and I have had so many experiences that are so outside of even close to being considered normal that we bonded together in the desire to support each other in the process of healing.
The larger context that we are both committed to is that the work we are doing is based on the understanding that the benefits of this are dedicated to our gurus for the benefit of all sentient beings.
Our meditation teacher Alan gave us out initial instructions into the process of healing. Below are the instructions


(1) Shamatha–– Full body awareness, with emphasis on the earth element.

(2) Vajrasattva Practice of Purification ––Imagine the gunk being pushed out by light. (Head to toe).

(3) Vajrayana––Visualization of pure light (form realm / deity yoga) emanating from the body and expanding into the field.

(4) Shamatha––Awareness of Awareness

(5) Tonglen.


Each of these are concluded with an understanding of how to have faith into guru. To not only have faith but more importantly to trust. Trust that is so pervasive that those doubts which arise into the mind of reasonable people are assuaged and nothing remains but complete trust. Lest ye be like little children ye shall not see the kingdom of heaven. Relearning to have that childlike faith and trust .
THis to me is quite scary as I have believed myself to be rational most of the last few years. However the diagnosis that has been given to this body is terminal and there is no reason to persist in believing that being rational is going to keep this body alive forever if this process works or if it doesn't.

THe ultimate plan is to let go of this body. I have learned enough of the realm of spirit that to hang on to this body through severe pain and suffering is pointless. The life of this body is not so precious to grasp onto it a all costs.
I have spoken to friends familiar with Indian customs and they have alluded to the customs in which the old understood that their time was upon them and went forth into the wilderness and left their bodies to rejoin the great spirit.
Poetic language that describes some of what I have seen in 11th hour work in Hospice and my own intuitive understanding of the passing of my own mother .