Kainchi

There are fast changes and their are slow changes. The fast changes are the ones that are engineered on the spot, or quickly, and may or may not have been thought through very thoroughly. They are more reactions than responses. With years of faith in god and guru the changes that were made have served me very well. The organization and actions that are in place feel to be the right ones, and so far the results have been most encouraging.

The next step for me is to develop a goal and work towards it. That goal is to go to Kainchi in India to visit and stay in the ashram of my guru Neem Karoli Baba.  I want to meet the people who knew Maharaji personally and drink from the well of spirit which they have shared with the members of the community  their whole lives. People for whom the presence of Maharaji is not something that was an unusual occurrence but people whose faith was bolstered by physical presence, bolstered by our compatriots and friends and with whom the love of the guru is a conduit to god in the self.

Cancer is a big wake up call. It puts into perspective what is important and what is not. There is learning that health is very precious, and that health includes, but is not limited to, having cancer go into remission. The health that I refer to is to finding oneself and the deepest level of understanding and prepare to live fully by letting go of that which is not following the guru's teachings.

Back to slow changes, with the goal in mind steps are now being thought through and guidance is being sought as to how to implement them.  The physical, emotional, spiritual, material, and anything not yet recognized changes that have to be followed daily to gain that end.

It is not a hope, it is a plan. Cancer may ruin the plan and destroy this body, then the desire will live until it can be fulfilled.

Maybe at a later date I will explore the why's and wherefore but not today.